“We hold these truths to be self-evident, that all men are created equal, that they are endowed, by their Creator, with certain unalienable Rights, that among these are Life, Liberty , and the pursuit of Happiness.”
The themes of independence and liberty have come up a lot for me recently. I have been philosophical in thinking about how the preamble to the Declaration of Independence applies to my life after weight loss surgery. As I read the preamble, several phrases and words jump out at me. To me, it is as if Thomas Jefferson knew that his words could have a very broad application and wrote them in way to make them accessible to more than just the members of the Continental Congress. It is as if he wrote the words to be universal in their appeal and transcendent in their meanings.
Truths that are self-evident; meaning truths that are obvious, truths that require no proof or explanation… they just “are.” We are all created equal; we are endowed with certain fundamental rights by our Creator; we are endowed with life, with liberty, and the right to pursue happiness.
“Truth” Truth is a powerful word. And in the writing of this preamble, the author infused this simple word with even greater value by indentifying these truths to be self-evident. Every truth that follows this very first thought of his phrase requires no proof because it is in the very nature of The Creator that they be true.
As an obese woman, the notion that I was created as an equal to all others on this earth was foreign to me. I always felt unequal. In fact, I was often treated unequal. This is one of the driving forces behind my over achieving ways. It seemed to me that I was required to perform “above and beyond” in order to merely play in the same league as thin people. Because society identified me as a “less than” person, I knew I was starting with a deficit that had to be overcome (and then some) in order to be perceived as equal.
In this instance, weight loss surgery has given me two things. First, and probably most importantly, I have come to see myself as equal. I no longer perceive that I must begin far behind the start/finish line where all of the rest of the world is standing. I no longer identify my own self as a “less than” person simply because I have the disease of morbid obesity. I have a disease. I did not cause it. It did not seek me out because I was some sort of a deficient human being. Therefore, like all others, I am created equal. Created. Equality was always inherently mine, endowed by my Creator, I just didn’t know it. Second, I am now treated as an equal. Those who would be prejudice now have no physical basis upon which to hang their judgments. It is a sad fact of our society, yet it is nevertheless true. I am treated more nicely, with greater respect, and with less scrutiny than I was as an overtly obese woman.
We are endowed with life. My life is forever changed by WLS. I believe that my weight loss surgery has endowed me with additional life, longer life, and far greater quality of life. Before WLS, I was looking down the barrel of a loaded musket of co-morbidities. My genetics had already loaded the gun with high blood pressure, diabetes, cancer, and heart disease. My obesity had essentially cocked the gun, and my own behavior was shoving gun powder into the muzzle as fast as possible. Now that I am a normal size, I have managed to significantly reduce the risk of that disaster in waiting. It was a pretty sure shot that life as a senior adult was not going to be of high quality. It was plausible that life could have gotten pretty bad, pretty quickly. WLS has managed to uncock the gun and has helped me unload some of that gun powder. The bullets are still in the chamber. I can’t change that because my genetics are my genetics. However, I’m no longer pointing the gun at my own head.
I am endowed with life. I intend to live my life to its fullest.
My best word to express the way I feel about my post operative life as it relates to liberty is “unshackled.” I absolutely feel as if someone found the key to my handcuffs and leg irons and let me go. I am no longer walking around dragging 150 pounds of prison with me. To be unshackled is to experience absolute freedom. It is a kind of freedom that is enjoyed only by people who know what it is like to be unfree. Those who have always had their freedom cannot possibly imagine the joy unspeakable that is associated with being released.
I am able to move my body in ways that I never imagined to be possible. I am always looking for new ways to move and new ways to express my body’s liberty from the ravages of a horrible, chronic disease. I am often like a two-year old who giggles in delight at each discovery of a previously unknown ability. This liberty is priceless and makes me deeply grateful to The Creator for the weight loss surgery that set me free.
I am also grateful for the right to pursue happiness. I am keenly aware that The Creator did not give me the right to immediate happiness; He gave me the right to pursue it. WLS has given me a new opportunity to pursue true joy in life on a variety of levels. Some of my seeking brings me to things completely and utterly on the surface. They are the transient things that do not have eternal value; reveling in new clothing, getting new hair styles, and wearing high heels. However, most of my pursuit is on a much deeper, soul level.
I have shed the physical layers that were so much a source of pain, shame, and a feeling of complete and utter failure. Having shed those layers, I find (much to my surprise) that happiness is still something that I have to pursue. I was mistaken to think that my pursuit of happiness was the weight loss alone. I thought surely thinness would equal happiness. It does not. The physical part of me that is left after the weight loss is merely the foundation for pursuit of happiness. The new life that I have been given, along with the liberty that frees me are the building blocks of this third, but ever-so-important inalienable right. It is the only listed inalienable right that contains a verb, it is the only inalienable right that required something of me from the moment I receive it.
Each day is a new opportunity to pursue happiness. I find that achieving happiness is much more about me than about my achievements or situations. It has become clear that living an event-driven life does not produce lasting happiness. If I am waiting for an event to make me happy, then I have missed the point. I can no longer allow myself to fall into the trap of “I’ll be happy when this happens or when that happens.” That is transient. Lasting happiness is my responsibility, through a connection with The Creator.
I am sure that Thomas Jefferson was aware how significant the Declaration of Independence was and that it would take its place in the history of a nation. Yet, I don’t believe that he could have possibly known that he was writing the Preamble to the Declaration of Independence for one woman who would draw strength from it more than 200 years later.
So, I close with this thought; Thomas Jefferson may not have known that he was writing to me. However, I am sure that The Creator was well aware, even in 1776, that this preamble would give me pause to take a few moments out of a busy week to acknowledge His presence, His gifts, and the truths about Him that are self-evident. I am sure that The Creator knew that I needed to stop and look at all He has given me through this miraculous process called weight loss surgery; equality, life, liberty and the pursuit of happiness; precious gifts that are only endowed by a loving Creator. For these, I am eternally grateful. For these I thank the Creator who created me.